officially starting over

It's Monday and officially my new year. Meaning to say that the day i've decided to get serious about living up to my resolutions started at midnight except i was asleep or trying to, so now's it.

On Saturday, my bestfriend (more like family since it's been more than 10 years since i knew her), turned 21. She wanted to have a birthday party by the beach under white tentages litted by candles, a lot of good food and all her loved ones gathered. With what little budget we had, that was exactly what happened. We were successful in giving her that dream birthday, if not maybe a pinch more. I loved it and she did too.

The night prior to her big day, Sally and i were both at home, cooking tirelessly in the kitchen. We couldn't afford to cater and felt our food was better. And we were right, just so you know. The response was encouraging, the lasagne, sushi and all that food. Encouraging because Aaron asked if he could order a tub of sushi from me. Order a tub. What, serious?

Just trying to reason out why i chose today to get real (real as in realistic), about my 2009 because there's no way i could with another party coming up. I have been having too much fun since sometime before Christmas and its time to draw the line, refocus and adjust myself into the things i've set myself to do. Besides, too much party makes me uneasy, everything about it as a matter of fact. The lack of sleep, the excessive eating, spending less time at home, too exhausted to take a bath or wipe off my make-up before i go to bed, no peace and quiet, no space for thoughts.. i'm sure you get it. It's as if your mind, body and soul are all over the place. So no more for now because life is not always a party and should never always be. Afterall, i am turning 21 and i wish to embrace adulthood by first stepping into it on the correct foot and second, being more put together and hopefully, a little more mature.

I'm exceptionally chatty today, please excuse the lenghty entry. It's one of 'those' days.

Happy Monday!